It's All Catching Up to Me Now
Hi there, friends.
I shared in yesterday's post that the transition to a new season of part-time work and attending to the needs of my heart and household was leaving me feeling refreshed and full. But it's amazing to me how different one day can be from the next because today I have such little energy. I think the events of this week have finally caught up with me.
In all truth, it's been a week of significant moments.
There is the tremor that shook the community of which I am a part when my dear friend Kirsten and her husband James lost their little boy after he fought valiantly in his two short weeks of life. It is still quite unreal to me that this is the reality my dear, sweet, beautiful friend is holding right now. It is still almost too tragic to be true. But it is true, and that has been weighing on my heart heavily this week.
And then there was the decision to step away from my full-time job, which has held so much of my heart this year. It was such a difficult decision to make, and it comes with its own share of heartache.
Not only was that decision momentous, but it was followed by an intense two-day transition out of my role there after the decision was made. I wanted to leave well and with all of my cares in order there, so those two days were filled with ensuring I finished well.
Then yesterday brought its own share of transitions. It was the first day of my new chapter, and it was also the first day at my new part-time job. Both of these are exciting realities in my world, and yesterday was indeed a very fun and joy-filled day, but these new realities also carry importance to me. I feel their significance in great measure.
This has indeed been a week, then, of great change, transition, and care.
And like I said above, it has finally begun catching up with me. I've been a bit more sluggish today, able to handle less activity, and altogether just in need of a good, long nap. I think tomorrow I will take myself to a movie. :-)

6 Comments:
i've been learning all over again lately how changes, even good ones, come at a cost to our bodies and minds and hearts. especially when they are multiple and important. i'm glad that you're tending to what these changes mean for you.
and i'm right there with you, so sad about kirsten's new reality. loving her and loving you from my end of the world...
I was thinking something similar to Terri as I read your last two posts . . . how there's a price to pay, even when good things are happening. I think it's so cool that you have the time and space to make this move (and I confess to being a little jealous, wishing I could make a similar move).
And Kirsten's new reality is heavy . . . and it comes and goes, ebbs and flows . . . today it felt so heavy.
Good morning Friend!
So good reading your post of LIFE from yesterday! Days like those are souch gems. Usually when those bright, vivid days when my heart is so filled - the following day will be quiet, or even dull. But that is OK. I saw the LOVELY desk of yours in the post you referred too. It must also be one of your favourite tings along with the Spannish mass, the sparkling kake and the cute little scarfes for your hair ;-) I LOVED it!!! I don“t really have a spot in my home where I really feel hat comfortable as you have created for yourself. Hmmmm, well, maybe I really ought to do something about that after having finised building the little house for my Noak in top of his bed. Yes!!
It is more difficult to read your posts than "just to wach talking in a video". But this is good practice for me though. I am a slow reader and normally I would never follow a blog with long writings every day as I do now :-)
Blessings to you in this new chapter of your life!
Hops Christianne, I am sorry for so many miss spelled words and wrong grammar etc in what I just wrote. It is very possible I will be more cautious a nother time how I write.
Terri, Kirk often reminds me of the same, the way changes, even ones that are exciting, can create stress on our bodies and minds. I think he said it's called "eustress" -- the good kind of stress, but stress all the same.
Sarah, I feel nothing but gratitude for the gift of this new season, as I know it is an incredible gift. It's something we've risked a lot for, and it won't be smooth sailing by any means, but it is a treasure because I know it's rare. Love you.
Olga, you are so sweet to read my posts here even though the reading is long and slow for you. Thank you! And it's funny ... I actually recorded a video update for these past two days and was going to post it instead, but then decided to just write it all out. Perhaps I'll do another video soon, just for you. :) And that's no worry at all about typos or misspellings ... I understand what you're saying and I see your heart.
PS: Yes, I love that little nook in my house! Now it has a tall dark bookshelf next to it, too, which is even more fun. I hope you're able to create a sacred space for yourself in your home, too!
This is totally normal ~ even positive transitions have moments of uncertainty. You have dealt with a lot this. Be gentle with yourself.
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